old/new friends

09/30/09.....it has been very weird for me meeting up with old friends on facebook. when i left oregon, i was leaving it all behind. i wanted to start over and didn't care if i saw or spoke to any of them again with the exception of a handful of people and family, out of obligation. i had experienced so much crap i just wanted out. a fresh start. and i got that. i can't complain.
oddly though, about 2 months ago i had several people request to be my friend on FB, all people i knew from oregon and all with in a month. i was VERY hesitant. it brought up alot of "STUFF".
however, one of my new beliefs is that the universe speaks to us and i decided it was supposed to happen that way. on reflection, it couldn't have come at a better time. i am quite content in my life and on a healing journey. if it would have come a year earlier, it would have been bad.
as a result, i have reconnected with some very quality people and friends. i have been able to give my life in a brief synopsis a couple of times and it hasn't been as scary as i anticipated. it actually has inspired me to start this blog, believe it or not.
thank you dear old/new friends. i feel you mean more to me now than you did in the past but i am thankful i met you then so as to bring you into my present. peace.

brutally honest

i am currently having a dabate with myself whether i should be brutally honest here or hedge. i am leaning toward brutally honest. it seems scary! brutally honest means all the details, many of which i have never told. not beacuse i intended to hide them but because i am private and deal with things inside. by the time i speak them thay are resolved in my head so to bring it up again seems unneccessary. however, how can i really tell my story without revealing it?

first of all...

09/30/09.....why philyra? philyra is a shapeshifting goddess of nature, beauty, healing and perfume. seemed appropriate!