yin and yang....

still reading the shakti gawain book....good stuff...
something i learned last night is an illustration about yin, being our female side and yang, being our male side. "Society" has trained us to usually ignore one side or the other.
the yin, is our intuition and guiding, motherly spirit.
the yang is the part of us that executes our yin side.
so, shakti said to ask yourself to reveal your inner yin and be open to the response.
i saw a crouching child at first, scared into silence.
i realized i WANT her to become older, wise, beautiful, white flowing gowns, etherial.
i found myself "thinking"...i am afraid of her...she is not logical! if i listen to her she may lead me in a direction "i" don't want to go. does she cause my physical pain?
she says: please, just listen to me...i want to RELAX, appreciate what you have..i will give you cancer if you keep ignoring me. u are beautiful and wise. u need to take some steps. use your boldness to get closer to what you want. it's okay, you are in a safe place. u need to take care of yourself, there is a niche waiting for you. my name is danielle but i have altered my purity so that you would LISTEN to me. i love children, and love, and beauty, and animals and gardens, and flowers and home and family.

next shakti said to draw your yang...i wrote what i saw...first impression was an older guy from the 20's, in a tweed suit and hat,brewing, had a mustach....(possibly representing old ideals?) then i saw nothing, then another man standing up...muscular, italian, wife beater and jeans on and ready to "go". (he came out of an alley, a heap of boxes to be exact.)
he said: this is ridiculous! pain is not an option, it is not necessary! alright, what is yin saying to do? let's go DO it!
(yin smiles)
he asks her: what would you like me to do for you?
pause...
build a garden, get more work, we need money,i want a diamond necklace a new car, babies, stop being paranoid, get your taxes done, ackowledge becky, cherish heather, libby is a godsend, thank joanie, she is an angel, find out whats going on with kathleen P., and your onto something with celiac disease.